Former Carlton captain Marc Murphy acknowledges that the second half of his decorated career never reached the heights of success that he had expected, and said the club made "definitely the wrong decision" when it sacked Brett Ratten as coach at the end of 2012 to appoint Mick Malthouse.
"It was probably the most lonely I've ever been, to be honest with you. There were times I just hated turning up to the footy club, which is sad to say when you spend a lot of your life at a place where you should love, and I'd loved for quite a fair bit of my time there," Murphy told the Dyl and Friends podcast, hosted by his former Carlton teammate, Dylan Buckley.
Murphy said he found Malthouse to be a "very autocratic leader" and the pair had a strained relationship from the moment the legendary coach anointed the star player as skipper ahead of the 2013 season.
"I just think his time at Carlton, I don't think he was really in it for the right reasons and once it all turned pear-shaped, it was all about him, unfortunately, at the end and I was left to be thrown under the bus quite a bit," Murphy said.
"He was obviously a terrific coach but unfortunately at Carlton for us, and for me, and for the boys who were working so hard, it didn't work out."